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HI • I AM • PLAYING CLOWN • AGAIN • TRYING TO PREVENT • A LOOSE NOOSE • MEDITATING ON NOTHING • REACHING OUT • SOUND KEYBOARD TO THE LEFT EAR BUD • AS I FINGER KEY BORED TO THE RIGHT • WHAT DRIVES THIS TYPE: ME: E • THE SORROW GHOST • LOST AND LACKING LANGUAGE • TIRED OF ALL THESE ACQUAINTANCES • CONVERSING WITH IMAGINARY LOVERS ON DISTANT CONTINENTS • AND DREAMING OF A MILLION MINOR PLANS TO FUCK UP MY LIFE • JUST TO GIVE IT SOME ZEST • ANY ZEST • A PHONE CALL AT 3 IN THE MORNING WOULD BE WELCOME AT THIS POINT • AN INCREASE IN HEART RATE • A HIGHER PULSE COUNT • A LITTLE RUSHING BLOOD • HI • I AM • PLAYING THE FOOL • SPORTING SOME DEAD SONGS INTO MY HEAD ON MY BED AT NIGHT • OLD BURNING DREAMS • AND DEEDEE SAYS A ROPE WITH NOTHING IN MIND • BUT I CAN'T BRAID STRING WITHOUT THINKING OF GALLOWS • A ROPE WITH NOTHING IN MIND INDEED • AND SO I WAS BORN INTO NUMEROLOGY ON THE 31ST ON A HOLIDAY OF DARKNESS • AND I WOULDN'T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT IF WASN'T PERFECT • SKETCHING A SHADOW BODY • IN THIS ELECTRONIC EMBER • WHEN I JUST WANT SLEEP • AND ANOTHER FRAME OF MIND • AND THE LAST ELEVEN MONTHS ERASED FROM MY MEMORY • YES • I • THE FOOL • WANT THE YEAR BACK OR MOST OF IT • I WANT TO RETURN TO THE FOLD OF WHAT WAS POSSIBLE FOR THIS NOTIME • THIS NOTIME WITH NOTHING IN MIND • I'M GOING BACK TO WHAT WAS ONCE POSSIBLE BECAUSE IT WAS BETTER THAN THIS • PLAYING • OF THE FOOL